Falling in love with someone you can't have

It's not easy in love. It's worse when you fall in love for the first time and you know that it's doomed. I can tell you from experience, that the conflict between society and personal happiness is huge. You know that the person is meant for you but you can't be with them because either they are already in a romantic relationship or they are married, that's even worse.

I have always put up my walls and let few people in, only who I thought worthy of trust. My wall has small open spaces. So when I met someone who seemed so familiar to me even though we met for the first time, I was blown away. I let my guard down, I let him in. He didn't take advantage of my vulnerable state or my innocence. I could be myself with him. I allowed myself to let him in because my intuition allowed it. A kindred spirit is always trusted, irrationally, wholeheartedly. I knew from the start that it wouldn't work out for us. Forbidden love is beautiful, heartwrenching yet heartbreaking.

We expressed our feelings to each other indirectly and non-verbally. We didn't need to say much. I hardly needed to, he would complete my sentences. The energy between us was crackling and palpable. The tug was mutually magnetic. Yet circumstances did not allow our relationship to thrive. So we bade farewell to each other. Soulmates can never really be apart. We may be physically apart but we are spiritually connected. That's the deepest kind of connection one can have.

I was overwhelmed by all this. I found it surprising that I could fall in love!!! I thought I could never let anyone break my walls down, but I did. Now my walls are back up. It took time, but I managed to build them up again. I know that my heart is open. I know that there is someone there for me. I'm willing to wait. As for my incomplete love story, I'm sure it will be fulfilled in the next life. Till then I know that I am capable of loving unconditionally, I can sacrifice love. I can be stronger than what I think I can be. I've grown and learned, that's the important thing.