En ma esprit

Mascara stained cheeks Tear stained pillow Trembling hands Hopeless sighs Feeling of loss Pain of rejection Hurt pride Broken heart Disillusioned Confused Ambivalent Unyielding Hope of love Destroyed by fear They won't stay Everybody leaves Pull them close To love Push them away To prevent hurt Shaky faith Fragile hope Cautious heart Distancing them Better to be alone Than to hurt Is it really better? This forced loneliness Elastic heart better Even if it's broken So long as it's want Because I don't need Share my love Express my passion But love is surrender That is so hard Slowly but surely Faith will grow Hope will blossom Optimism is important They won't love passionately Won't care as much Can't give too much Get little in return Need to be restrained I can't be emotionally bankrupt Part of me will always be Hidden, mysterious, inaccessible Is it all worth it?

As we live in a society we have different types of relationships with people. It is very important to have relationships because they contribute to our growth. Isolating oneself leads to a lot of problems. There are many types of relationships. Relationships may be formal or informal, both have a set of norms that are followed. In order to sustain a relationship, there needs to be open, honest communication. Relationships thrive on reciprocation, mutual trust and understanding. Defining a relationship is not always easy, both need to be on the same page. Time changes people and this leads to blurred lines in relationships. An evaluation of relationships is important in order to know where one stands in the relationship. Past history of relationships definitely has an effect on present relationships, but it's important to not sabotage present relationships because of the negativity of past relationships.  A dominant submissive relationship is a relationship in which one

I'm sure most people are a lot more tech savvy than I am. Being not-that-tech-savvy is a bad thing. Everything today is dependent on technology. If you aren't technologically aware then you can get fooled. I wish I knew the intricacies of technology. Four years of Computer Science in school and a semester in college is not enough. I feel lost when my laptop acts funny. I can only get answers if I'm connected to the internet or I ask help from a friend. Clueless as I am in complicated tech matters, I can't really judge which option is the best for me. I generally go with what I need, knowing that someone will tell me later that I made a bad decision. Opinions though are subjective, if one were to seek professional help then they must prepare to part with a tidy sum for very little service. If you just let a professional touch your computer you have to shell out cash for a "consultation". Okay, so they may be tech doctors but that does not mean that the

From our incessant curious questions in childhood, our rebelliousness during adolescence and our mature observations during adulthood; we are constantly trying to make sense of this world and life. We are aware of two factors that play a major role in our lives: free will and destiny. Some people believe that free will has a greater role while others believe that destiny is a more powerful factor that affects us. There are also people who believe that free will and destiny have an equal role in affecting our lives. If we seek to understand life and this world we live in, we need to understand people as well.  Nearly all of us live among people and interact with them.  This is not applicable to a person who lives in isolation without any kind of human contact.  People have an important role to play in forming our perspective towards life and the world. Based on our experiences with people, we can either have a bitter or pleasant attitude towards life.  We humans like to make o

When I was a little girl I thought I would marry a charming prince just like the girls in Grimm's Fairy Tales . Most little girls fantasise about that. When I was in high school I decided that I would not marry because I did not want marriage to interfere with my career. I have changed my mind about that. Honestly, I find marriage overwhelming because of the expectations that society has of women. Just because a major part of the world has a patriarchal society, women are not given equal importance. The women who are alright with making compromises so that they can be considered a ''good wife'', do so because of social conditioning. I believe that we should always question things instead of just believing in them blindly. Traditions and customs should not be followed without trying to find out the meaning behind them. If they make no sense then they should not be practised. I read newspaper articles and blog posts online and that's how I chanced upon a

Siblings are a very important part of our life. They are our first friend or frenemy. The first contact with socializing with someone besides our parents is our sibling. During childhood we consider them to be our first friend. The ones who are always there to play with us. They might have fought with us and bullied us but when another kid dared to do the same they defended us. The eldest sibling tends to be authoritative and responsible because they are made to be in charge when the parents aren’t around. The middle child is usually moody and is neglected by parents. The youngest child is pampered and the center of attention. The eldest child resents being made to act like a parent when the parents are away, they want to act like kids but can’t. They tend to take out their frustration by dominating and punishing the younger ones. The middle child is cranky and withdrawn as they do not receive much attention from the parents. The youngest child is always wanting att

Family is the most basic and important social unit. It gives us an identity which is unique. We can always depend on family when things go wrong. Even when friends desert us we can find support from family members. When we aim to create our own identity, carve a niche for ourselves; we still go back to the comfort of the family home. We can’t choose our family but we can choose our friends. So we have to be happy with whatever type of family we have. This could be like a life sentence for people who don’t have a good family. Our parents and siblings bring out the best in us, only if they are good people. If they’re not, then they can bring out the worst in us. We can exhibit the kind of behaviour we detest upon being instigated by a family member. Our quirkiness and idiosyncrasies could very well be something we learnt from our family members. Even if we are mocked because of it, we can’t help but behave that way. From a young age, we seek approval from our family even if w

In the room, there were three, Cancer, Capricorn, Scorpio and me. I smiled at them, they smiled at me, I stared at those lovable three. Scorpio looked at me with those magnetic eyes , I felt I was reaching the highs. Oh! Those hypnotic eyes, My those enigmatic eyes. Scorpio's poisonous passion,   Was in his eyes, And he made me blush; And brought tears to my eyes. Scorpio said he loved me, He said he wanted me. I said ''There are three''. ''How can I only love thee?'' His Scorpio elixir of passion, I had to ignore. For there was a secret, Which he bore. There was one problem, A very big problem! Scorpio would only be faithful to me, If he felt so toward me. Scorpio I had to bid farewell, Oh! That handsome devil! He wished me well, I wished him well. Now in the room, there were two, Cancer and Capricorn, ooh! Capricorn looked at me in the same way, Bogie must have looked

We all need friends throughout our life, without friends life would be very lonely. Oftentimes we have problems with our friends. Nowadays the most common problem is the lack of interaction due to our busy lives. I wonder whether that is actually a valid reason for not being in touch with friends. Some people are busy with work, some are busy with studies. I don't think anyone is that busy that they can't make time for friends. A few friends have given me the excuse of being busy. It is more like they want to say that I'm not worth their time.  I’m sure that besides work or studies, they do take out time for online social networking. If they can do that, they can definitely take out time to WhatsApp a friend. I have learnt that the best way to deal with such friends is to ignore them. After all, why would one want to continue being friends with somebody , who apparently has no time to be in touch? I think that online social networking has contributed to unhea

If I were between the devil and the deep blue sea,  I'd choose the deep blue sea.  As I know I'd meet Mermaids along the way,  who would guide me to a place far below;  A place that I do not know.  Filled with magic and mystery, love and history.  And there I would learn about the things that I should know.  Things people try to find but never get.  For they are hidden in the soul,  the soul of the sea.  I know that they are waiting for me.  And I know that I shall see,  Things I wanted to see,  For a long time.  Like the formation of a pearl in an oyster.  The gentle dance of the Jellyfishes.  The moaning of the Dolphins.  The moaning of the sea.  Hurt by our insensitivity.  Dirtied, polluted and raped by our selfishness.  Is it any wonder, that there is water everywhere, Yet not a drop to drink!  I yearn to quench my thirst,  not with water but with love and understanding of life and death.  For we may know a lot of things,  but we certainly